i hold onto things so hard because i grasp onto hope like i have nothing left. because in the end hope is all we really have. with everything. life, actions. we hope things go well. we hope one things turns out the way you want. we hope you say this, you hope he says that. we hope. that’s what we do. that’s what i do. so i find it so hard to let go because that means i have to let go of hope. that’s why is so hard.