This is your Sunday evening reminder that you can handle whatever this week throws at you. Even if school, work or general life isn’t okay, you’ll get through it because you are damn strong and amazing.
sometimes i dont understand myself. i dont understand how i can be so fully whole heartedly invested in something. an idea. a moment. and then the next i feel the complete opposite. talk about bipolar huh. its exhausting. i feel completely compelled to have an idea and put everything behind that idea, my morals, my everything, and then the next day its like it never existed and i stabbed the back on everything i swore that i believed in. what kind of person am i that i can be switched just like that right on a dime. no one has to say anything i do it all by myself. its like my mind wants me to be miserable and its like my mind enjoys watching me suffer as i go back and forth and round again. five months i have found my way in countless circles only to end up in the same place and baffled about how i got there.. only to at the same time know the answer. it is a strange thing, my mind, my psychology. i wonder if everyone has feelings like this. like they have no control. like it just.. happens. to think that i could make a decision and keep it.. that will be the day that pigs fly. for i am so beyond weak i wish there was a word that i could say off of the top of my head to match it so. for i feel like i could crumble with a fingertip push. its amazing, dont you think. how kryptonite is real. how very real something is, but at the same time, it is just a thought. the thought of that thing that is so real. and thoughts aren’t real. theyre thoughts. it’s just.. amazing.
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